The Vicious Cycle of:

I’ve written about many different things on many different blogs. I have about six blogs and I try to keep up with three of them. It’s been hard. I don’t want to sound like I am whining because I’m not. I’m just at a point where I’m beyond exhausted. I can see several paths ahead of me and I’m not sure which one I should take.

I recently started full time working in retail. Which is great because it means more money and benefits. I actually secured the position and I’ve been working with that company for less than six months. I like to move fast. I like promotions and I like to be rewarded. Oh, how I love rewards.

However, with each reward I still seem to fall short of where I need to be. I just cannot seem to figure out how to make it so things work together easily. Full time means more money but it also means less time. Less time to write, less time to dream and less time to work with my horses.

My horses- I love them dearly and I really don’t want to give up on them but I’m tired of fighting a losing battle. I keep talking about how I’m going to start a breeding program. I’ve started making contacts within the horse industry and I’ve started laying down the flagstones for that path. All great things but I don’t know if I’ll go down that path. I’m losing hope that I’ll be able to make something of myself. I’m starting to slip into being a glassy eyed person who keeps her head down and avoids all opportunities at becoming something more.

I’ve had to make a lot of concessions. I’m a better person because of my experience but I’m really tired of suffering. That is where I’m at. Exhausted and hoping that I don’t have to give up but I’m pretty sure I do. What do I have to give up? I’m not sure yet.

Things are moving forward but they feel like they are moving backwards. I’m beginning to wonder if I’ll ever be financially sound and if I’ll ever have a place to call my own.

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Equestrian Writing

I’ve got some exciting news- I announced it on my personal blog http://dreameralways.blogspot.com but I wanted to officially annouce it here.

I’ve been asked to be on the publications committee for the American Trakehner Association. Huge! Right? It means that I’m doing something right. Writing is often a thankless task. As a writer you get to put your ideas down on paper and then you have to edit them and refine them. Sometimes, you create something great. Other times, you just throw it all out.

I’ve been struggling with writing for a while- I’ve been trying to get a foothold. Originally, I thought that I could just jump in and make money but now, I realize that I want to write on the side (until things get cooking) and work a regular job to make sure I have income that can support my horses and myself.

I have to say that being in the industries that I’m in is tough. It doesn’t give me much free time and the free time I have I end up not wanting to do anything. My mind is constantly on the go. Organizing and planning this and that. Scheming and thinking and revising. It can be hard to slow it down and get it to focus on the here and now. Sometimes, I just want to relax. To enjoy the moment for what it is. Then my mind starts spinning a new idea, story or article.

What draws me to both riding and writing is the aspect of development and the opportunity to learn more and to learn better. As I move forward with my goals I hope you move forward with yours.

Set the Course

As a horse person when I hear the phrase “Set the course” I think of put up a ring full of jumps or planning out the day’s ride or the goal to get to the next level. As I write this I am thinking about where I am setting my course. What is my end goal? What path do I want to take?

I’ve joined several horse professional organizations and it has opened my eyes to new avenues of networking. My major goal right now is to network out. How have I done that?

Well, I contacted my breed association and asked if I can write for them. They said yes. It was unpaid but it is exposure. I have another magazine I am writing an article for. The thing I have to accept is that they may not run everything I write. When they do though, it gives me the opportunity to get my name out there.

My career path needs me to take chances and take risks. I received a compliment the other night “you can write so that’s not the problem.” The problem is exposure. So, my goal right now is to gain exposure. To I expect to make a lot of money writing for the horse industry? No, I don’t but I do it because I need to expand my horse industry experience. I’m so thankful that I’ve had all of the experiences that I have had. I’m climbing out of the “abyss” so to speak.

I don’t want to write much more as I’m exhausted and my thoughts are running from me. I’ve worked over 30 hours in the past four days and I have three more days of work ahead of me. Then I get a “three day” weekend. Which won’t really be a weekend. I’m going to spend a few hours on Friday working on a couple of magazine articles. Friday is also the day of the KD Jumpers Auction (in another life I would be flying to Wisconsin to buy several Trakehners for my breeding program. Unfortunately, I have a few years to go before I start my breeding program (Connecticut Trakehners). Well, if I won the lottery that would change but I don’t have good luck (A topic for a different blog).

In short, the key to turning your life around and accomplishing your goals is to never stop working. Even on your days off do things to promote yourself. Write, blog, network, and talk to people. Tell people your dreams, the more you talk about it the more invested you become and the more likely you are to succeed. Set your course and plan on how you will navigate your course.

September post

Hey everyone,

Thank you so much for following this blog. I’m excited to develop my readership and I’m excited to connect with other people. Most of all, I’m excited for the opportunity to bring awareness about the noble Trakehner to those who might not have heard of the breed. I’m thrilled that I have the opportunity to help shape the next generation of sport horses.

Currently, I’m working on an article about why I decided to breed my mare. That is due in the beginning of October. I’ve also just procured a full time position working at a company with lots of upward mobility. I’m excited for the opportunities there.

While things are hectic I am at my best during those times. The more I have to juggle the more efficient I become- I guess I’m a workaholic.

That being said I would suggest you check out my blog http://feliciajane.com there I write about the stories I create and the struggles I deal with outside of the horse world.  It’s chock full of musings and writings that you’ll find interesting. My mare Julie, has even written on there a few times.

Check it out and tell me what you think.

Sincerely,

Felicia